IT HAS BEEN A FEW MONTHS SINCE I POSTED AND MY POSTS HAVE KIND OF BEEN ALL OVER THE PLACE. I APOLOGIZE FOR THAT. IT MAY NOT BE FRUSTRATING FOR YOU GUYS BUT IT IS FOR ME. I HAVE BEEN (YOU GUESSED IT!) SICK. HOWEVER, THIS TIME IT IS FOR A COMPLETELY HAPPY & DIFFERENT REASON. LET'S START WITH SOME THINGS YOU MAY NOT KNOW ABOUT ME:
1- I AM 26. I AM TOLD I LOOK YOUNGER. BEING SO SHORT AND SO THIN, I
TEND TO LOOK LIKE A LITTLE GIRL MOST OF THE TIME.
2- I AM MARRIED. I HAVE KNWON MY HUSBAND SINCE I WAS 18. HE IS THE FIRST GUY I EVER DATED, AND SINCE I MARRIED HIM, THE ONLY GUY.
3- I AM 11 WEEKS PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST CHILD.
YUP, YOU READ THAT CORRECTLY. THE FIRST TRIMESTER HAS KICKED MY BUTT. I WAS SO SICK AND SSSOOOOO VERY FATIGUED. I DIDN'T HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GET OUT OF BED. IT IS JUST RECENTLY THAT I HAVE REGAINED SOME OF MY ENERGY AND HAVE BEEN FEELING MORE LIKE MYSELF.
YOU KNOW HOW THE MOVIES ALWAYS TALK ABOUT A 'PREGNANCY GLOW' BULLCRAP, I SAY! AT LEAST FOR ME AND AT LEAST FOR THE FIRST WEEKS. I FELT LIKE I HAD BEEN RAN OVER BY A CAR AND THEN REVERSED ON. I KEPT EXPECTING MY BABY TO BURST PREMATURELY THROUGH MY ABDOMEN LEAVING MY DEAD CARCUS ON THE GROUND LIKE SOME SCENE OUT OF ALIEN. I FELT THAT POORLY.
BEING A MOM IS NOT SOMETHING I EVER CONSIDERED OR ABSOLUTELY NEEDED TO BE. SOME WOMEN KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT THEY WANT TO BE A MOM, I WASN'T ONE OF THOSE WOMEN. I KNEW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT I WANTED A SUCCESSFUL CAREER, THAT IS ALL I KNEW. SO THROUGHOUT THIS THERE HAS BEEN MOMENTS OF TERROR "HOLY CRAP, I AM GOING TO BE A MOM?? CAN I DO THIS??", MOMENTS OF JOY ' HOLY CRAP, I AM GOING TO BE A MOM! I CAN DO THIS!" AND MOMENTS OF DISBELIEF "HOLY CRAP, AM I REALLY GOING TO BE A MOM? IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING?" DESPITE THIS NEVER BEING APART OF MY 'GRAND PLAN' (AS THEY SAY: AS WE PLAN, THE GODS LAUGH) I FIND MYSELF LOOKING FORWARD TO MEETING THIS LITTLE PERSON, THIS LITTLE MIXED OF BIT OF MY HUSBAND AND ME, AND DESPITE MY FEARS I KNOW THIS WILL BE ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I MAY HAVE NEVER PLANNED FOR BUT I WILL NEVER WANT UNDONE. IT IS A JOURNEY I AM GOING TO EMBRACE.
I AM ALREADY PLANNING ON ALL THE CHILDREN'S BOOKS I WANT TO PURCHASE. DID YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITES AS A CHILD?
I HAVE BEEN LUCKY, MOST OF CLOTHING WERE ORIGINALLY TOO LARGE ON ME. SO NOW AS I GROW THEY ARE FITTING PERFECTLY HA HA. OR ELSE I WOULD HAVE HAD TO BUY MORE CLOTHES BY NOW.
HEELS, SKORT, PURSE- ZARA/BODY SUIT- FOREVER 21/ SUNNIES-ASOS
THIS BLOG WILL MOST LIKELY BE CHANGING, HOW, I AM NOT SURE YET. SINCE IT IS A REFLECTION OF ME, IT CHANGES AS I CHANGE AND SURE, NOT ALWAYS GRACEFULLY. HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOWN FOR THE RIDE, EVERY CHANGE IS MEANT TO BE A STEP FORWARD, AN IMPROVEMENT. A STEP CLOSER OT BE A MORE ACCURATE REFLECTION OF ME AND MY PERSONALITY AND HOPEFULLY MORE AND MORE HONEST AND 'REAL'.
P.S.- LISTED SOME NEW ITEMS IN THE 'SHOP'